But I'm not. I refuse to let Satan get me down and say, "no one is going to believe this." "There's no point in me being here." "Why do you even bother?" "No one is going to read this book" "No one is going to come to church." However, I know I have a purpose. I am here for my love of my Savior, Jesus Christ. He suffered just as much for me as for all of my Japanese brothers and sisters who just don't know yet. I know that my Savior, Jesus Christ called me to Japan. He has a purpose and a reason for calling me here. He is preparing people to hear this message. I just have to rely on Him and let Him guide me to them.
This is the Lord's work. I feel so honored and blessed that He called me on a mission. I am so grateful for the experiences that I've had. I'm so grateful for the companions I've had and the things I've learned. I'm so grateful for all the people I have had an opportunity to teach here in Japan. I love them and I only want the best for them. Yes, they break my heart. Yes, I've wet my pillow at night for them because I LOVE them. It's so hard because I know what can make them happy, and yet they choose otherwise.
My purpose here is to help others. Not just non-members, but members, missionaries, people, everyone I meet - to come closer unto Christ through His beautiful gospel of faith, repentance, and baptism.
I love this gospel. I have gained a deeper testimony and knowledge of the importance of church, the sacrament, the book of Mormon (even though I already loved it before) and the importance of being a member missionary. The importance of praying for specifics and not just being satisfied with rote prayers. To pray to find those who are searching for this gospel. To not over think things but to just go and do!
How lucky are we to have this gospel? To have this safe anchor and peace in our lives? There is a phrase in Japan that we nickname "the devil's analogy" it goes, "There are many ways to the top of the mountain." That is a lie. And Archbold shimai and I HATE that phrase because it's not true. There is only ONE way. That is through the gospel of Jesus Christ through the restored priesthood of God.
God speed, good luck, love you all,
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